Popsicle Friday

Welcome to our humble abode. This place is my sanctuary what people call a "happy place". There has recently been a new addition to our little gang. At first, I was a little hesitant about letting Cloud stay, even though I could see he just wanted to be happy too.

But Itachi, who has, as long as I've known him, has been a very strong, silent type of man, started behaving a little erratically.

To be fair, this didn't surprise me as Itachi's social and emotional coping skills aren't the greatest. But as long as it's only been the two of us, it has never been an issue.


Think about it, he never had a girlfriend before, he's never been in love before, he's never really had to compete for anything (cuz all he do is win.)

So, when Cloud first rolled up on his bike, I was a little curious as to how he found the place. There's only one way in and one way out, but somehow he figured it out.

Itachi wasn't so obviously jealous that I could react to him with that in mind. At first he started exhibiting a lot of moe. That was strange, He's animated, but he ain't all that animated, you know what I mean? He was all chibi and cute and blush-no-jutsu and I was just kinda noticing he was all in a tizzy about the boy on the bike.

So I'm like "Ohhh...okay...I see you and Sasuke are very similar in your tastes."

So okay. I  just  kinda fell back, but let Cloud know, "Hey, I can't just let you stay here, I need to consult with him."

Cloud, no stranger to his charms, gives that stoic nod, and rides off into the figurative sunset, because it's actually a tunnel, but even still, it's really a dimensional portal through the spirit world, just in case you're wondering.

After that, Itachi becomes, kinda agitated. For days, he was having the WEIRDEST mood swings. Like, I could understand if he was jealous, or attracted to him, but it was more like, he started pushing me away, because he was afraid I'd do it to him first. Trying to detach. I kept trying to reassure him that I love him and I wasn't even going to consider letting Cloud in, if he didn't want him there, because this place is a place of peace.

He would calm down for a minute, but his eyes. They're kind of a factor in his emotional instability. If a Sharingan holder feels a negative emotion intensely it tends to get louder, more intense and more aggressive until they're nearly hallucinating, trying to play out all scenarios to cancel out the worst case.

I know that, NOW.

But at the time, he would cling to me for dear life, and then push me away and avoid me in the same breath as if he were really trying to get ahold of himself, but couldn't see the forest for the trees. Which, only deepened his insecurity and made him say some kinda fucked up shit to me, but like I mean, I lowkey knew he didn't mean it, but my feelings were still hurt.

I had to be mindful not to overreact because he was so obviously having a hard time trying to figure out why he was going through this and why, no matter how I tried to help, it only made him feel worse and more insecure.

It didn't really improve until Cloud came back after a few days, basically like "Is my room ready?"
I, obviously was wary. Like, "This isn't a great time, I didn't call you here!"

Itachi was laying down in the bedroom and I told Cloud "You need to leave before he sees you and you make him upset."

I see movement upstairs and I shoo him off, and he disappears, I dunno where he went.

Itachi comes downstairs and he's like "Who were you talking to?"

I say nobody, and he brushes past me and walks outside. and I'm like, "Babe you should be lying down!"

And he goes straight to the bathroom shed (because our house is small so we have a shed bathroom outside) and Cloud is just standing there looking like "this is how I die"

Tears started falling from Itachi's eyes, and he looked hurt and then he got right up in Cloud's face and ...kissed him?

I was confused. Cloud was confused. But he wasn't mad at it. Then Itachi said he could stay.

I mean... Like... I know you think this is the best-case scenario, like, "oh all's well that ends well" but it made shit awkward. Because, It was just me and Itachi, girlfriend and boyfriend, and I'm not a freaky nasty umm... person? Cloud's just standing there blushing and I'm like I mean, I  can't be mad at this development, BUT where do I fall in this? Where do you? Is he gonna like you more than me? and then I lowkey was kinda becoming jealous of Cloud, but after a few days It seemed like Cloud was more into me, and I didn't wanna make Itachi Jealous because I love him more than anything, so I was clinging to him but he kept pushing me to go hang out with Cloud, and I was like 😥 but I wanna stay with you! And apparently, I'm clingy, and Itachi is the kind of introvert who needs his space, so he wouldn't get testy or angry, but just be like, I'm just not really in a cuddly mood, but you should go ask Cloud if he wants to play. So I'd end up in Clouds room like cuddling him, lowkey crying and sad about how Itachi won't cuddle, and he's flirting and making me laugh so I'm not sad about it- it was weird. But good weird.

Anyway, They're actually quite close now, and they do shit without me all the time. Troy and Abed shit. Which is fine, I'm not mad, BUT you know, like sex stuff, is off-limits for the time being, because I don't wanna feel like I'm cheating or being cheated on. They do makeout sometimes though, like drunk girls at a party, and it means absolutely nothing to them, it's insane...
Clearly just to make me flustered. Ugh. God. That's as far as it goes, though.

But you're wondering: "Are they gay?" "Who's the top and who's the bottom?"

Well. I'm a top. Itachi's a top and Cloud is a top. So we just spin around and around each other bumping and spinning out in crazy random directions all day.

But the peace is intact. So that's what matters.